In Pain!

Apparently I am not as young as I use to be. This weekend my boyfriend and his kids were here and sunday after church and lunch we went out to my parents and jumped on the trampoline.

First mistake jumping with the kids, second mistake jumping out of the tree fort like did when was in highschool. (Bear in mind its been almost 11 years ago since I was in highschool)

When I jumped out of the fort I felt my back jar. but as a kid my body was so resilient and it didn't hurt later. Appartently at 29 years old, not so much. So for the last couple days have been at home in bed in so much pain. no bueno! I need to get back to moveable by friday since have a class to teach @ the gym. gurrr getting old fun.

Going to get another ice pack and watch another movie.

Pray for me!

Humble

Today realized that my plans when was younger are exactly NOT what am today. but I now understand that God has different plans for me and continues to challenge me daily.?
For those of you who know me, know I cannot be more adamant about looking forward to being a wife and mother. Idealisticly I would have loved to have started a family already and be married to an amazing man of my dreams. But alas it is not where I am at this point in my life journey.?
I am dating this amazing man and father to two beautiful children who? I enjoy spending time with? I am trying to continually trying to seek Gods will and listen to what He has to say about our relationship. But some days I am human. We disagree and I automatically want to throw in the towel and not try. But I have recognized why I do this. Its from a prior relationship that I was hurt from and scared to get hurt again. But who wouldn't be. Also becoming a potential step mom or role model is hard to even think about too. I want my OWN family... but why is it so hard for me to wrap my head around Step mom doesn't mean they are not apart of my family, they are just a different and very special component to it.?
I think I'm just worried about the whole evil step mom or being blamed for anything the kids would do bad once I was married to their dad. but that all said. I do enjoy them immensely and look forward to spending time with them, I have so much fun with them. They are great kids and maybe just maybe God gave me the desire to be a mom regardless of how it happens.
I guess only time will tell. For now I am going to continue to seek Gods plan and enjoy every moment.

Fall Loves...

what i love about fall:

chilliness.
 the smell of burning wood.
Fall candles. comfy socks. homemade soup.
oversized scarfs. Boots.leggings. sweaters.
 cuddling. early morning kisses.
 10 layers of blankets at night.
brown+red+orange+yellow.
 sitting by the fireplace.
Caramel apple spice cider.
 extra layers of clothes.
no makeup.
My mom's homemade chili.
 pumpkins. hay rides.

hot tea. winter coats. 

MIA

sorry everyone, my computer has been down and getting fixed so am writing this via my phone. A lot has happened recently so will have a lot to write about. A new relationship and new work situations. hope to be back on by the end of the week. maybe will do another via blackberry. but for now, I can still read everyones blogs and write mine technically but no pics. have a good night.

Letting Go and Letting God.

I have finally decided that being out of control of my life is OK. Because my Father, the King of Kings, 

IS in control! I am allowing it to be a precious beautiful moment everyday and to consciously listen to 

Him and let Him lead. I have tried every other avenue in my life and it never ends up anything but messy. 

I have had my fair share of "Mistakes" in my life and have to say they are what make me who I am today. 

Not that I would wish any of it on anyone. 

"Don't be afraid. Just stand still and watch the LORD rescue you today.

 The LORD himself will fight for you. Just stay calm." Exodus 14:13-14

Pause and think about it. Let Him RESCUE YOU today! Why do we always look to ourselves or others to rescue us? Why not let our Heavenly Father do it? Whats so hard about that? I know for me its there is not always immediate answers when you allow Him to rescue you, but that is where the beauty is. Letting go and letting God. He is longing for you to reach out and fall, fall into His amazing arms of Grace and let him take your life over. He knows what is going to happen anyways he made the plans and gets a chuckle out of our constant tries to erase and rewrite his story for us. 

Let Go And Let God!

...its my party and ill cry if I want to...

ok so tues the 5th was officially my 29th birthday and it was great considering the text messages started the night before while watching fireworks at my house. One of my good guy friends in LA does a count down every year for my birthday. Wish he lived closer, but alas he does not. And for some reason this year everyone was online or awake at midnight, because the text were so crazy 

I had to put my phone on silent to go to sleep.

The day of I went to lunch with a good girlfriend and then to coffee at Gloria Jeans in the mall, and had an appointment with Tori @ Benefit. After that I went over to my friend Biancas' house to hangout until I needed to go home and get ready.

We started at Camp 4 downtown and had a wonderful time enjoying wine, cheese and my birthday chocolate panini. Then went to Donobys for a couple more beers and some darts.

With a very eventful birthday, and next day, Thank you to everyone that came out and wishes were met. 

10 years already???

So it was my 10 year reunion. Can not believe its been 10 years! Wasn't going to go to the reunion but got talked into going to the bar that they went to which is about the only thing that is open after 5 in the town that i grew up in. well it was definitely interesting, i enjoyed walking in and no one really recognizing me. for a minute until someone I didn't recognize high fived me and I had to ask a friend who it was after he left. Oh well I think I can wait another 10 years.

blueberry fields forever.

6/16
Today I went on a play date with some of my girlfriends and their kids. We went to Jessops Farm where they have pick your own blueberries. It was a wonderful time of eating half of what you pick and chasing down 8 kids around making sure they stayed close to an adult. Love my girls and their kids. Thanks for allowing me to pacify my need for kids for the day. Loved ever min.

BE-U-tiful Weekend

So my weekend has been full of spending time in the sun,

 hanging out with family, 

and spending time working on ME. 

Went to the Concert in the Park with my girlfriends and their kids.

Watched HERAFTER with the parentals,

Ran hills with my BEStIE Elizabeth (OK, walked fast),

then walked another 4 miles.

Realized I am enjoying painting my nails.

*my new favorite brand.

walgreens $1.99!

I also have been getting to that point 

that I am really starting to realize how much I want to

find "that guy" and settle down and start a family.

I always have but its been weighing on me even more lately.

I wanna fall in love <3

Hope you all have a BE-U-tiful Weekend!

a little about me>>>

my current obsession(s)...

My blackberry torch

DIY anything to do with my house

and of course BLOGGING!  and reading other Blogs...
it's a sick addiction and i can't get enough.

one item from my closet i wear most often...

My new OLD NAVY diva jeans. 

Love how they fit right in all the right places.

the last thing i bought...

My new Forever 21 clutch 

it is basic enough to go with everything

I’m listening too...

All Zumba music lately, 

have to love it to teach it right!

any pets?

Unfortunately no.

I grew up with cats, dogs, chickens, geese, and horses

But not with my new house, 

white couches and white bedding don't mix well with puppies.

favorite holiday spot...

San Francisco Union Square in front of Macy's.

guilty pleasure...

Starbucks Mocha Frappuccino 

with either toffee nut and caramel

or raspberry and peppermint

best thing i’ve had to eat or drink lately...

The Market Salad @ The Elephant Bar

favorite film...

favorite song... 

Ciaras- Gimme Dat, 

might be because its my fav dance in my class

favorite flower...

 I love different roses, not the traditional red ones 

but the ones that have multiple colors

who makes me laugh...

My besties Elizabeth and Ann Marie, 

always have a stomach ache after spending time with either girl

favorite sport... 

Really anything love to watch it all

first sign of spring...

when my roses start blooming! 

love that they are the first thing in my yard to bloom

favorite thing to do on a sunday...

Take Elizabeth's kids to the park. 

I cant wait to be a mom and take mine too.

Crazy Day in the Bay

...so Monday my gurls and I, headed out to the bay,

rode BART into Powell and decided that we were going to enjoy the city despite the weather. 

We started @ Forever 21 where I am a self proclaimed accessory whore. 

My motto is that if none of the clothes fit the accessories always do. 

So needless to say i came home with quite a few pieces. 

We ended up walking up to Urban Outfitters.

Cheesecake Factory is almost a necessity if you spend the day in the bay.

We met the nicest couple from England that were on their honeymoon. They were saying how nice people in California were. I guess also portions are not as big there either and stuff is cheaper here too. She was kind of bummed about the crummy weather we were having but was excited to go shopping. They were so cute. 

We of course then decided to hit  up H&M 

a funky store that is where FCUK(french connection uk) use to be, 

and then my fav Anthropologie.

At that time I think we are all tired and ready to head home,
or to Dublin at least.

Got to TJ Maxx just as they were closing
and decided maybe we needed to head home too.
Gas station stop and mandatory rebulls got us home.
I had a great time and look forward to our next girls day.

SO Excited!

 OK, so I am starting this blog a month before my 29th birthday, so its a little over a year before my 30th but better to start while I'm motivated.  A lot has changed in the last couple months to bring me here but thought it would be nice to document this year, maybe even longer we will see. So like I said a lot has changed in the last year. I was working for a furniture store for the last 3 years and was surprisingly laid off a couple months ago. God has a bigger plan, trying to learn to listen and trust Him, which is easier said than done. Right after the lay off I got certified to teach Zumba. The certification was planned as additional income, to teach on the side. It now had become my source of income. Definitely not paying the mortgage and all the other bills but  I have been blessed to have other opportunities to supplement this income. Still looking for a great job with benefits but alas nothing yet.

Zumba has been a great outlet and I am meeting great people everyday! I have an amazing network of instructors that are local and we love taking each others classes. Support!

I also have a degree in interior design and so you will see design related blogs throughout. I bought my first house 2 years ago next month and I am having a blast making it my own. I love finding pieces of furniture that have a story and look accumulated over time, my friends say my house feels like I have lived here a lot longer than 2 years. I enjoy adding character pieces and changing things around. My new favorite piece is my record player that really has no home but it is in my living room nevertheless.

Looking forward to this journey and taking you with me, hope you come along for the ride.