Thursday, October 24, 2013

Going a little Cray Cray over here

 when I make plans, God has a way of changing them.

That's me,  the girl with the Coffee, the day planner...  

The plans

The one with everything "mapped out" in her head,
lists of "to-do's," and what not.

If there's anything I should have learned in the past couple of years, 
it's that God's ways for me are ALWAYS better than my own 
and that I simply need to "let go" of making my own plans and simply TRUST  Him. 
Just let go, and let God.

That's easier said that done for a person like me I am not a control-freak type of personality but like to be able to plan things out and see things on a monthly basis.
My personality is not one that enjoys plans going awry and off-schedule. It in a sense upsets me and gets me flustered. And grumpy. Really grumpy.
I tend to shut down and shut people out. 

That has been a good majority of my month since my back injury. I honestly have no idea what happened or how. I had what felt like a charlie horse that Thursday and then woke up Friday  got out of bed and collapsed as soon as I stood up on my right leg. pain shot down my leg to my ankle over and over like lightening. I was hysterical in tears. I had no idea what was going on. Called into work and called my dad to see what I should do. My mom ended up taking me to the chripractor. My pain level was at a 9/10. For me I have a high tolerancy for pain so it had to be bad. 3 weeks of adjustments about every other day and wearing a back brace for about everything I do. I have had to learn to allow others to do for me and to take everything alot slower than I am use to. I am not cleared for teaching Zumba. Which is really hard for me. I not only miss my students but the gym in general. 

Monday, September 2, 2013

Talk about...

being a little on the busy side!
       So I feel like every time I get on here that I am apologizing for not blogging. Unfortunately every time I think about it I am not home to do it. Life has become fair to say a little more preoccupying than I thought this summer would be. You see I decided to go back to college and do some child development units, at my preschool director's suggestion. I loved taking the intro class this summer despite the idea of going back to college, into a different major, after 7 years of not going to school. I did it also with out financial aid, which they told me that I would not receive due to exhausting the number of units you can have to qualify.  I ended the summer session with an A in the class and thought, "Ok God, this is so you... show me what next." So I registered for  two more classes for the Fall 2013 semester and waitlisted the other 3 unit class I needed to have all 12 that I was told I needed to be a teacher. God ended up also prompting me to get involved with the CARES program in our county that is a tool that many teachers utilize, but is a lot of work. So needless to say after the semester started last week I got into my waitlisted class and now am taking 9 units (3 classes) that range from fully online to hybrid to all in class. As well as the CARES program that has not started. Not to mention still working at the Preschool every day and teaching Zumba two nights a week.
Busy Bee thats Me!

God is so good! He as you know from earlier post has brought me an amazing man that is so in love with God that sometimes I am jealous...





This past weekend he went riding, you see he races dirt bikes. SO Hot!!! :) and was gone Thursday through Saturday night. Normally its maybe a day not seeing each other but still being able to talk on the phone whenever. But he had very spotty service when he was in Hollister, CA this weekend. So needless to say when he got home and came over late that night I could not stop hugging him. I think for me that was the realization that I am done, I am completely smitten and can not wait to see what our future has in store for us. We are daily striving to keep God the center of our relationship which can definitely be a hard thing to do especially when you want to spend every moment with each other. 

Last night our church had a Family Picnic and so we decided to have me casually meet the kids. He has 3 amazing little ones, 11,10, and turning 7. Originally I had said I wanted to wait 6 months but it seemed like God had other plans for us. we talked about it that morning at church and realized it may actually be easier on everyone involved to have them introduced to me casually and they would not have to stay around if they felt uncomfortable. So we went ahead and did that, his oldest and youngest we immediately excepting but the middle one not so much. I decided when we left that maybe I would be OK with taking them to a movie that night. Since that would still not be a lot of face time but them still being able to see me interact with their dad.  I think by the end of the night It had become a little too much for me and I felt very overwhelmed and scared. Was this what I wanted? God show me you in this. I guess I did not really think about the feelings I would be having meeting them and really pray about it before suggesting the movie. The great thing is the boy, is completely OK with me taking the getting to know them part slowly. Which I think is best for all of us.

Prayer request for now is that we would continue to seek God in our relationship and that I have not put too much on my plate this school semester.

In His Presence I lack Nothing!
Annelise 

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Catch up despite being knocked on my rear

Guess since I'm feeling knocked on my tushie, I can sit and write a blog update. So Monday night, during my Child Development class I started feeling really congested, and foggy. The boy took me to see a movie and I spent the entire movie blowing my nose or sneezing, needless to say the decongestant had loosened stuff up but maybe too much to be out in public, lol.
Tues morning I dragged my rear out of bed and hit the gym for a morning Pilates class where I usually stand in the front but felt the need to sit in the back. Did not want to have to blow my nose and get up and interrupt class. I was drained after class so I headed home to crash out for the rest of the day, until I needed to be at the church for CR (Celebrate Recovery) Someone very special to be was sharing their testimony, and left me with a new understanding of them. Despite the fever I was fighting.
This morning Today was hard to wake up still not feeling good, although not feeling the severity of the fever I was feeling last night. Although nothing really sounds good to eat since my throat is so raw. The boy just brought me a cold buster from Jamba Juice, so attempting to function normally. Since I do have a @ hour lecture to attend tonight for my Child Development class.

My staples rt now are:




Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Overcoming

Today I want to share some of what has been on my heart. I do not know if anyone has noticed that I have been quite MIA as of September. I have had to process a painful breakup and start a new job, which is in a field I never saw coming, all in a matter of weeks of each other. The breakup was out of the blue, but he was thinking only of my best interest when he made the decision. I want babies and he does not see having more kids. Simple and to the point, if only my heart could understand. 
Sometimes life can get a little crazy. Crazy as in, not exactly what we have planned. But guess what ladies and gents...that's okay. My new job opportunity happens to be working with kids, preschool to be exact. Its at the school that I attended 5th through 8th, as well as the same campus on which I attend church. I am currently at a loss of what I will be doing for the summer (2.5 months) since we are not having an extended summer program for preschool.  I'm learning that I don't have all of the answer and more importantly, I'm not supposed to. That's what faith is for. My Savior does so all I have to worry about is casting my worries on Him. Trusting Him. Leaning on Him.

Doesn't that take a load off? Knowing that you don't have to worry. That you shouldn't worry. That it's your job not to worry. I don't know about you but I just took a deep, relieving breath of fresh air after letting that sink in. 

Now if my patient spirit could calm my not so patient and worried mind,. things would be great! As of now I am just taking one day at a time and allowing myself to accomplish things around the house. See I was unable and still should not be lifting heavy things. I re injured my back a couple weeks ago and have not been able to be in the gym the way I have been (everyday*). I miss it so much and was forced to have someone else teach my classes. Talk about being even more stressed out about my financial issues. I had to spend a fair amount of my federal return on chiropractic and paying other bill that were suppose to be paid with that money. I am stepping out in faith now hoping that I will see Gods hand in this all. Trust me, so hard to not try to plan or orchestrate the who what when where and why of my life. 




A blessing that God has given me is a wonderful man that I have started dating. I have definitely kept a wall up with him bc of my past but he has continued to love me through it. My mom says that I have a "different duck" with him. For once a man who leads and also claims his faith as his own. I will tell you more in a later post but do keep us in your prayers. I want to make sure that we are always putting God first and allowing Him to lead the relationship at the pace He see fit. 

Until next time, Annelise

Clever Girls