Overcoming

Today I want to share some of what has been on my heart. I do not know if anyone has noticed that I have been quite MIA as of September. I have had to process a painful breakup and start a new job, which is in a field I never saw coming, all in a matter of weeks of each other. The breakup was out of the blue, but he was thinking only of my best interest when he made the decision. I want babies and he does not see having more kids. Simple and to the point, if only my heart could understand. 
Sometimes life can get a little crazy. Crazy as in, not exactly what we have planned. But guess what ladies and gents...that's okay. My new job opportunity happens to be working with kids, preschool to be exact. Its at the school that I attended 5th through 8th, as well as the same campus on which I attend church. I am currently at a loss of what I will be doing for the summer (2.5 months) since we are not having an extended summer program for preschool.  I'm learning that I don't have all of the answer and more importantly, I'm not supposed to. That's what faith is for. My Savior does so all I have to worry about is casting my worries on Him. Trusting Him. Leaning on Him.

Doesn't that take a load off? Knowing that you don't have to worry. That you shouldn't worry. That it's your job not to worry. I don't know about you but I just took a deep, relieving breath of fresh air after letting that sink in. 

Now if my patient spirit could calm my not so patient and worried mind,. things would be great! As of now I am just taking one day at a time and allowing myself to accomplish things around the house. See I was unable and still should not be lifting heavy things. I re injured my back a couple weeks ago and have not been able to be in the gym the way I have been (everyday*). I miss it so much and was forced to have someone else teach my classes. Talk about being even more stressed out about my financial issues. I had to spend a fair amount of my federal return on chiropractic and paying other bill that were suppose to be paid with that money. I am stepping out in faith now hoping that I will see Gods hand in this all. Trust me, so hard to not try to plan or orchestrate the who what when where and why of my life. 

A blessing that God has given me is a wonderful man that I have started dating. I have definitely kept a wall up with him bc of my past but he has continued to love me through it. My mom says that I have a "different duck" with him. For once a man who leads and also claims his faith as his own. I will tell you more in a later post but do keep us in your prayers. I want to make sure that we are always putting God first and allowing Him to lead the relationship at the pace He see fit. 

Until next time, Annelise